What happened to me? I’m not myself these past few days. I’m being emotional and shit. If you know me personally or if you’re following me on Twitter then you probably know that I’m not like this, like I don’t post emotional/too personal stuff or whatever shit you wanna call it. I used to have limitations on what I post on the internet. But what happened now? Maybe because I’m hurt. I dunno, really. I used to be so happy and carefree. I dunno if I should blab about what happened but I think I’ll end up doing it anyway.

So yeah, my boyfriend for almost two years cheated on me for six fucking months and I have no idea. Though okay honestly, I have those small hints but you know I gave my 101% trust. And you know what really hurts? I just found out the day we’re supposed to celebrate our second anniversary. Sure we broke up weeks before that day and I tell you I’m doing pretty well, like the break up didn’t affect me that much. But that’s because I don’t know anything yet. So moving on two days before that special day he popped out of nowhere. Like what’s the point? Why check up on me? To make sure that I haven’t move on yet? so if ever you and your bitch went through a rough patch then you’ll still have me? Dude, I’m not a second fucking choice. Anyway me being so stupid I let that *popped-out-of-nowhere-incident* affect me. If you know what I mean, like I long for his attention again. But my stupidity doesn’t end there I think the most stupid thing I did was to call him on the day of our anniversary. I know right I shouldn’t have done that but believe me I tried not to.  

So at first he tries to ignore my calls, and so I tried calling him again until he finally answers it. And guess what’s the bitch’s reaction? He was like “who’s this?” So I’m like bitch we’ve been together for almost two years then you seriously forgot what my voice sounds like. Seriously? Anyway, when he finally realize it was me he hung up the phone so I tried calling him again until the fucking slut answers it. Yes, they’re with each other that time. The time that I’m supposed to be with him to celebrate our anniversary. So yeah I was shocked. We’re both shocked, she hung up the phone and I called again this time he answers it. He told me he’s with his “girlfriend” and that they’re having a fight because I called him. I even heard him saying to the slut that someone he doesn’t know is calling him. What a liar. Honestly, I was hurt. I’m totally hurt. I was like bitch did you just deny me? The guts. And yes, I’ve also heard the slut saying that she wants to talk to me or something but he didn’t give the phone. Instead he told me that we’re over and I have to move on. That scenario keeps hunting me every now and then but I’m getting better in ignoring it as time pass by. 

Anyway, Oh please of course I will move on. Actually, I’m currently in the process of moving on it may get delayed at one point or another, but sooner or later I will move on. I will be fine. I will allow myself to heal simply because you don’t deserve my love, you don’t deserve me. But honestly I’m thankful for what had happened. I’m thankful for the memories that we’ve had. I’m sure that what we had was real. I loved him to the best of my ability and I’m pretty sure that he also loved me. I’ll just take this as a blessing in disguise. Like I’ve become stronger. And that I’m one step closer to the guy who will love me “forever” that will love me and just me. And this time I won’t rush things out. I’m young and I have my whole life ahead of me. I’ll just go with the flow and I’ll make sure that I’ll have fun along the way. One thing is for sure though, no matter what happen I still and will forever believe in love. That I will give my whole heart and trust to the next guy that I’ll be dating. :)